I GOT A JOB!!!

It's true!!! Holy Balls! And it's a really fantastic job at that! The benefits are rad, and more importantly, the people are all very nice. I'm an Office Administrator. I administrate office all day! It's totally want I need in my life right now.

Here's my new plant I got for my new desk at my new job!:



I am really into plants right now. I currently have 7. I can't help myself! It's my current hobby. Watering plants once a week, however, does not really a hobby make. Which brings me to my true reason for this post: I have spent the better part of 8 months trying to get a job. It has been my goal, my second job, my hobby, if you will. I stopped doing anything creative, because I felt stifled and stressed. I focused all of my energy there and now, well, now I am free! Creatively speaking. I auditioned for a staged reading yesterday. It was my first audition in a VERY long time. I went home and fell apart. I felt so uncomfortable with putting myself out there. I used to not be this way. I have built a comfortable bubble around myself. In that bubble is Tony, my plants, Dr. Who reruns, and my job. Yesterday made me realize that I am only hurting my self esteem by keeping myself from life.

With all that lovely, deep epiphany stuff in mind, here's what I need. I need your help. YES, YOU! I want this blog to go back to it's original idea: to spend a day in the life of someone else. My post from August of 2006 was the perfect example of this. I spent a day at the Comic-Con convention, and a day in the life of a nerd. Now, here is where you come. Make suggestions! Post a comment about who you want to see me be! Some ideas I've been knocking back and forth are a day in the life of a police officer, a barista, a baseball player. Those are just some ideas, but I know you have something even better than those! I only ask that it is something that will not harm me physically, and something that is financially feasible ( I can't really travel to Italy to see what it's like to be an Italian chef, but I can go to Little Italy... see what I mean?). It may also need to be something that is done at night or on the weekends, but I can be more flexible there.

So please post a comment with your ideas. I will only publish posts that have a name attached to them. So all of you Anonymouses out there, sorry, you gotta own up to your ideas if you want to see them played out by yours truely.

Now I will leave you with something that has haunted me for years. Whenever I pull money out of an ATM at Washington Mutual, I am always greeted with a picture of Jay Leno on the dollar bill... did I miss a big new story?



Thanks for reading, and I look forward to your help!

What's next?

I don't mean after life... well I kinda do. But in the more immediate sense, what should I do now? I have been looking for a job for a while now. I long while now. Since July. I left my most recent job in December ( I know... in this economy?! But I had to if I wanted to hold on to my sanity). I quit my improv team in September, because I was bored with improv. So, for a long time now I have been wandering. If you are an avid reader of this blog, you know it goes back even longer than the last 6 months. April 1st will be our 1 year anniversary back in Chicago. I could not be happier with that move back!!! Actually, in my day to day life, I am very happy! I am madly in love with Tony, I really love and adore my family and am SO happy they are mine, I am way into Dr. Who and have a major lady boner for David Tennant, I like the way my hair is growing out, I am really enjoying the new floral prints that are in this spring, OH and I have a lovely new fish named P. Hamilton Seales.

But still, it keeps echoing in my ear, "what now?" What am I supposed to do with my life? I have all these ideas, but none of them jump out at me. I want to write a solo show, I want to start a photography business, I want to do a play, I want to go to school to become a Zoologist/Astronomer/Astronaut/Teacher/Yoga Instructor/Good person who raises money for lotsa bad diseases and makes people better (do you need a Masters for that?!). I have all these ideas and nothing grabs my attention long enough. And I feel like time slips by and I am not doing anything. And if I got hit by a bus tomorrow, what would I have to show for this life, besides good hair? I am overthinking it, I guess. Everyone feels this way. But it doesn't make it any easier.

I am also really into plants right now. I haven't killed my plants yet. They are actually growing! And that's nice.

This is the picture that shows up at the end of Tony's Sudoku game on his phone. It's a Strawberry wearing a newsman's visor. He is staring contemplatively at the moon. I have no freaking idea what it means... but I get it.

Welcome Home, Foxy Brown!!!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Holiday!!! I am in Florida visiting my parents. Christmas was going great, until last evening when we got word that our friends' pug went missing. They were vacationing in Ohio visiting family, and she got out. I seriously did not sleep last night. I mean, I did, but not well. She was gone for all night, but, THANK GOD, they found her this morning!!!



This baby pug and her brother are my fave and I love them to death!!! I am so happy she's safe!!!

New Year's Resolution

Oy Vey! It's that time again! Merry Holidays everyone!!! In honor of the holidays, as well as our impending doom (aka the recession), I quit my job!!! Incidentally, why is that the words recess and recession are so similar, yet have very different connotations... am I right? Ahhh political stand up. Yes, I quit my job. Sigh. I will not go into details, but suffice it to say, I am happier and much better off emotionally. I got some temp work this week, which gave me some hope!



As I was playing a receptionist, I started thinking, " I am back where I started."

This last year and half has been full of change for Tony and me. Since we landed in LA to now, I have felt stuck, in a rut, confused, lost. Like my life flooded with muddy water, and I have been taking a crappy bath in it ever since. Since deciding to walk away from what I thought my dream was, it seems like nothing will replace this dream I had for so long. What now? What do I want to accomplish to leave my mark on this world. I am truly in a quarter-life crisis. I know that a lot of 25 year olds go through this, but it doesn't make it any easier.

I was reading Oprah's magazine today (my mom would be so proud,) and it was all about how to change yourself for the better in the new year. I think it's safe to assume that every issue of her magazine is about how to change yourself for the better, but I have never read one until today. I have always considered myself to be a very self aware, reflective person. I often analyze my actions, how they effect others. I tend to over-think what I do, or how I act. And then it hit me. The last year and half, what I thought I was doing was analyzing my choices from the past year, and reflecting on my mistakes, when in fact I have been dwelling on them. Instead of being constructive and proactive about moving on and learning, I have been letting it hold me down. I am treading the muddy crappy bath water instead of grabbing a branch and pulling myself out (stupid metaphor, but you got it). So what if I don't have a damn thing figured out? I don't have to. I am not living my life to the fullest because I am letting my past decisions run my present, as opposed to letting them inform my present. So, I guess my New Year's resolution is going to be to let myself heal. I am too hard on myself. And to move on.

I obviously have some obstacles to overcome in my near future, like tonight I have to get some new winter boots,(because apparently snow makes holes in rain boots. No that isn't a pink polka dot, it's my sock!)



Oh and I also have to, ya know, get a new job!!! But the sheer fact that I had this realization today really made me feel better. I sort of felt like a mental weight has been lifted. I feel like that alone will make me have a better year in 2009.

I hope you all have a really fantastic holiday season!!! This is a picture of a dancing Santa ad on the internet that made me very happy. I don't think the picture can convey how 'gay dance club' this Santa was, but nevertheless, MERRY
CHRISTMAS/HAPPY HANUKKAH!!!



Love,
Mikaela

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TONY!!!

Ok, ok, ok,OK I GET IT! I really SUCK at keeping up my blog!!! I'm working on it!

How have you been? I have been good! Just working on a few things that could change my life for the better. Well, enough about me, it's my man Tony's Birfday!!! It's the big 33. To quote Tony, " This is Jesus' birthday. So now I have to reflect on my life and say ' look how much Jesus did by the time he was my age! what am I doing with my life?" Well, I know that so far in your life, you have made me VERY happy and VERY lucky to have you!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I can't WAIT to be your
bride!!!!!




As for the rest of you, I'll work on writing more, I promise!!!

Happy Holidays!

Love,
Mikaela

Smoking Kills...

So I am not one to get all preachy about my beliefs. I think the only thing I get preachy about is wearing a helmet when biking or scootering ( I wonder why?).

But a few weeks ago, I was leaving a theatre I perform at regularly, and, well, I saw something that just reminded me how dangerous smoking can be:









Be careful out there...

HAPPY BIRFDAY JAMES!!!

My friend James asked me to make a happy birthday post. His birthday is today. We celebrated by getting dinner at a vegetarian restaurant, then I watched as he, Tony, and our friend Bill ate large slices of cake in a very short amount of time.

James likes to remind me that I never post anything on here.

Happy Birthday James...



You're a real gem.